I Wish

I wish
I dint love you the way I do
I want my thoughts back to myself

I wish
I dint hate you the way I do
I dont have the power anymore

I wish
I could see you one more time
Before I forget what you look like

I wish
Never to see you again
I wont know whether to strangle you or hug you

I wish
To make you laugh
Cause thats the best sound on earth

I wish
To make you cry
Cause thats what I did

I wish
To hug you one more time
To relax in your arms

I wish
To let you go
Cause thats the only way I can live

I wish
To wipe your tears
I wish
To be reason of those tears

I wish
I could love who you are,
and not
Who I thought you are

Schrodinger's Cat

Those of you are pretty much into scientific blogs and Big Bang Theory (The TV show), will know this term for sure. But for others,

Schrodinger's Cat refers to an experiment by a scientist. He put a cat inside a box. Performed some experiments around it. In the end, the cat could have been alive, or it could have been dead, with equal probability of both. How do you find it out? By opening the box.

The brilliance here is, that u cannot know about the status of life of cat without opening the box. No scientific equation, or previous history can lead you to the answer. You just have to take the plunge.

Keeping this in mind, there is no question of experience. There are certain things, which you just have to try.. You cant know if you could be a good swimmer unless you jump in the water. You cannot know if you will love booze unless you try it. You will not know the thrill of walking in dark unless you try it.

So, you think if you can do a certain new kind of job? I think the answer is pretty obvious!

Arise... and Fly!!!

His mom always said
Arise..
Arise and open your arms
Embrace the air

His dad said
Breath
Breath as you are the only person
Breath in your senses

His friend told him
Run
Run as its your destiny
Run for its your freedom

His coach taught him
Fly
Fly and let yourself rise
Fly cause its freedom

"And he has done it! The world record for Olympics is broken. And its truly amazing that the new Long Jump Champion is blind..."

Based on a true story of pole vault champion.. My bro told me once... but i dont know the details...

My Dream

I once had a dream
A small wish
It was simple, it was innocent

With years, the dream grew
Inch by Inch
Brick by brick

The dream is huge
Stands like monument
It's no longer small

It's no longer a dream
It's my passion, It's my reason
It's my breath, It's my soul

The dream has clashed
The dream is broken
The dream is shattered

There was no brick
There is only glass
And the broken glass hurts

I collect the pieces
Piece by piece
Wound by wound

There will be new building
In the same place
Taller, mightier

I start afresh
Inch by Inch
Brick by brick

I love my life.

I love toys
They are sharp
They cut my hand
They break my heart
I still love toys


I love rains
They make me sneeze
They make me sick
They make me ill
I still love rains

I love my best friend
He smokes weed
He breaks chairs
But he calls me a bro
I do love my best friend

I love that girl
She breaks my heart
She keeps me dark
She makes me weak
I still love that girl

I love my life
It gives me Lemons
It gives me Cheats
It is all litters
I still love my life

PS: sorry for the noob attempt... but thats just spontaneous

That Pretty Girl

How many times have you seen a really cute/hot/pretty girl sitting across you in a food court or something like that! And how many times have you wondered how wonderful it will be if you could just approach her like the hunk of the millennium and ask her out for a date, and then make out...

Well, Fantasies apart, such things, as far as i have seen, happen only in Movies. Admitted, I haven't seen many girls as it is, being in Nagpur (the fashion is to cover your face whenever you are outside with a long scarf. You are lucky if u get a glimpse of eyes!), Calicut (Coconut Oil is a BIG turnoff!!) and Trivandrum (The only good thing here is TCS training Centre!!)

Anyways, by some miracle of Almighty, I saw a really pretty girl the other day here. The cogs in my brain started doing overtime, and I imagined an entire scenario

"Hi"
"Hi"
"I am Sanyam"
"I am Katrina"
"Katrina! Wow, nice name. But I bet the famous version of you aint as pretty"
"Blush"
"Will you like to join us"
"I will be glad too"
At this point, I just move over, imagining that i get her, (and friends, if any) rolling over from laughter with my witty sense of humour. Details you ask. I don't know.

Soon, but tooo soon for my liking, its time to leave. This time I look at her, and she says first
"Wow, you are really funny"
"Thanks" and some witty line.
Sweet sound of her laughter and "Was nice talking to you."
Now even in imagination, I hardly get the guts to say the next line
"Would you like to go out with me some time"
"Yeah sure. Note down my number"
Whippie!!!!
Then I strut off, and all her friends converse how really awesome I am!!

But what really happens is
"Hi"
Disgusted Look
I walk away

or

"Hi"
"Hi"
"I am Sanyam btw"
"So?"
I Walk Away

or

"Hi"
SLAP
I RUN Away

or

"Hi"
"Hi"
Too Tongue tied to say anything after this
*Stammer idiotically*
I walk away with the fact that at-least she replied!! :P

In any case, in practicality, none of the real scenario might go on for more than 20 secs.

And thus the entire evening in food-court is spent calculating the probability of a successful talk. Its 20 minutes since the entire thing started, and a Funky Joker comes, and sits next to her, whispers in her ear, gets a smile.

And my friends Guffaw themselves to Death!

He is the love of her life

"Just because someone doesnt love the way you want them to, doesnt mean that they dont love you with all they have!"

He is the love of her life
She feels heaven when with him
She feels like that for no one else
She knows he will never fall for her
She knows she will be rejected
She never confessed her love
She calls him and his phone is busy He must talking to Niti.
She feels lonely
She can see him walking with Priya. He must be flirting with Priya.
Priya is smart and funny. She is plain old her
She can see him available on gtalk. And he hasnt pinged her yet.
Obviously he doesnt have time for her
She sends him a text later. They used to text a lot.
But he doesnt reply for couple of hours. She switches off her phone and cries out to sleep
She is feeling rejected
She ignores him next day in class
She catches him staring at her and feels there is some hope afterall.
She ignores him further to get more attention.
She talks flirtatiously to Ravi when he is watching. He should be jealous.
He will come to her so that they can walk home together. They always walk home together
She watches him go away. She knows that now he does not want her company. She feels rejected
She thinks its a mistake to love him.
He is completely selfish.
She still wants to talk to him once.
But he is no where to be found.

She is her best friend
He can talk to her for hours
He trusts no one else
He knows she loves him to death
He knows he will hurt her like hell
He never needed confessing
He likes Niti. But he lies to her.
Lying is sin. But truth will break her heart
He is talking to Priya. She went on a date yesterday.
He was teasing her about it.
He is signed into chat. But is he watching a movie.
He reads her text. He was out with his friends for a drink.
He decides to call her up later. He calls her later that night. Her phone was switched off.
He feels they havent talked for long
He notices she is down and is clueless what to do
He sees her turning her face away. He is clueless to what he has done to be avoided
He sees her talking to Ravi and smiling. It is good she is talking to other guys and flirting.
Atlast she can getting over him. He starts walking home. He should give her the space
He walks back home alone. He is sad.
They always walked home together. Something is missing in their friendship.
He thinks he has to get away from her. He is hurting her a lot
That is the selfless thing to do.
He starts hiding from her.
But she manages to catch hold of him

She asks him what his wrong.
He says nothing is wrong

Things are not the same
Things will never be same

He was the love of her life
She was his best friend